Your Beautiful Demise

So here we are once again on the same sick merry go round. I thought that I was over it and yet I find out that I am not. 3O minutes is such an accurate song and yet when it comes to you I feel that those 30 minutes never fucking end I keep telling myself that I won't think of you and yet here I am thinking of all the shit you said. I keep thinking that these 30 minutes will finally be over and I can finally make up my mind and decided and yet it never happens and the more I try to forget you the more I find that I can't and that's the worst punishment of it all. It's like I keep on waiting for something that will never happen and yet I find myself thinking that it might. I sometimes to find myself wondering how the did it all go wrong